I'm Sorry...

I didnt know it'd end up like this.

I only wanted to help.

Whatever hurt or anger i've caused..

I am really sorry.

It's hurting me too,

to know i could have caused this

thinking i was helping..

Its just there,

in my head,

not going away..

Not until i know i'm forgiven.

Please...

Goodbye to you..

So there i was sitting in the living room, nice and comfy, when it suddenly came on the screen(tv)..

Heath Ledger is DEAD....

NOOOOOOOO....... *sob sob sob*

you will be dearly missed :(

RIP.

Cell Outin'

Last saturdays cell gathering was awesome!

Thanks so much to Shealin for opening up your home to us troublemakers :P

Hope it wasn't too much trouble.

So anyways, it was supposed to be a pot-luck thing.. but guys being guys, they brought nothing but "man power" to the table. Which wasnt actually needed cause there wasnt any heavy lifting! Well except for choon yong. At least he brought the jelly cake- which i didnt get to eat *sadnessess*. So yeah, i contributed shephard's pie (i made it myself) hehe. I was quite happy with it, could have been better but good enough. Pizza!! There was lots of pizza too.

I had alot of fun! Truly a time of bonding. We talked, watched a movie but i wasnt paying attention to it, took a bunch of pictures, laughed, ate, drive about although i didnt and probably some other stuff too. OH YEAH!!! I am sad( and slightly grossed out) to say that we tortured and killed a snail. Graphic pictures will be posted soon. And hopefully a video.

I like the part were wai kin, the recently turned 17 guy, drive like a round the park in front of shealin's house. he NEARLY hit a car TWICE, didnt look while making a turn and not to mention accelerated while jon was on the hood of pei ling's car. I repeat ON THE HOOD OF PEI LING'S CAR!!! Now that was scary. Scary but funny, after we got out of the car.

Most of the guys went on to play basketball with a couple of residents. I, not understanding why Nick was still playing with a twisted ankle, sat with rachel and mel pretending to cheer for which ever side scored. Lameness, i know. I gotta admit Ron and Darren are quite good. This coming for someone who rarely pays attention to this kinda sport. This was also the first time i met Ron. Mei San if you're reading this. I think you two are so cute!!

Moving on to a slightly more serious part of the day, I got scolded pretty bad by my dad over the phone when Shealin, Mel, Shou Yi, Nick and I were at Mcd's buying dinner for everyone. I was seriously scared.. But thankfully for Shou Yi and Mel, they calmed me down. But still, when i got home that night, i was like walking into a shooting practice where my parents were the guns and i was the potato sack they used for target practice, hypothetically speaking.

Rewinding to when i was still at shealin's place, the last hour or so I spent there, i think was what it was all about, thats the purpose of a gathering, a time where you get to know people without all the distractions and what not. Im really glad i stayed and probably wouldnt have missed it even if i was gonna get into more trouble.. Thats saying alot, you know.

I mean, i got to know alot about these friends that i had no idea about. They got to know a part of me too but after hearing their story, mine didnt feel so significant afterall. But it was a tough battle happening within me which i had to deal with on my own.

All friends can do is give advise and thats it. But thats not all i can do for this friend. I can be there for him, to listen to him if he's got anything weighing him down. But i think what he needs is to voice his real feelings towards the people that matter in his life. Then together they can overcome. And with such a great presence of God amongst them, I know they can pull through.

If you're reading this, i hope you know who you are, Im here for ya and so is everyone else. Dont keep it in :)

Marcia<3

Love is all around is, Just enbrace it already! :D

Marcus doing what he does
At the airport: marcus and i
Goodbye Kl, Hello Thailand
Just arrived, Sea Game were happening
The 3 M's

I was feeling jobless. Anyways, these are the early pictures from our thailand trip. Grr friendster isnt letting me upload my pictures so i'll just have to post it here :) I tell you, we were so happy to be going out of the country for a change, even if its just Thailand. The Thailand International Airpost is really beautiful. Better than KLIA. Unfortunately..

In a nutshell, it was Great! People were uber friendly, unlike some Malaysians.. Food was unique but kinda bland without the addition of chili and stuff. Shopping there was the BOMB!! I tell you, i think i brought back more shirts than i originally took. Hehe I got my bikini :P but i regret not getting this really pretty handbag I saw. My dad'll probably say the opposite; "You already have so many bags. You dont dont need another one,". So yeah.

From that experience, I would most definately wanna go back to Thailand again.

Till next time :)

P/s: The foot massages over there are to Die for. Not a service you can find here. Well, not as good anyway.

New and... New :P

Its alive.. ALIVE I TELL YOU!!!

My blog is finally coming alive again. Hahaha!! I shall promise to update my blog as often as my schedule permits me. But it must be understood that its an important year for alot of us and there are only 24 hours in a day. If i could do more, I would. Believe it :)

Marcia <3's>

Musical Theatre Workshop

Its finally over. Well, it was a great 4 says and i really learned alot! Thanks so much Stephanie :D That girl is truly amazing. This is one workshop i'll never forget. I met so many new people who are really talented and friendly. ISo this it what we did throughout the workshop.



Day 1#

We watched this sermon from i dont know what but it was seriously amazing. It was about the universe and all the galaxies in it. And at the core of thefarest galaxy which is like 320 million light years away, theres something called the x structure. You know what it actually looks like? i really looks like cross!! It was so beautiful!!! Anyways, Stephanie explained to us about the song we were gonna do and what it was about and were its from. Its called "The Human Heart" and its from the musical "Once On This Island" which Stephanie performed for her graduation. So we watched the first bit of the musical, did some funny warm ups and learned part of the song.



Day 2#

Theres was alot about carribean style movements. It was super funny cause we did stuff like the chicken leg etc. Unfortunately, Sammy got injured and couldnt join us. I felt super bad for her cause all she could go was sit there and watch us...Other than that, we went on to this method of acting called story telling. Stephanie had us stand in a circle and kind of create the first thing that came to our mind and pass it on to the next person. My object was super weird. It was kinda like a box or something, like a treasure chest. Finally, we got into groups and "story told" the first 4 lines of our song. My groups went with the tv channel theme. Each person represents a channel, a line in the song. I was a sleepwalker(a dreamer)Once the viewer(kenny) went through all channels, someone called him away( lead him to the truth).



Day 3#

Now day 3 was interesting! When i got there, there was two new guys. One of which i found really haute!! Of course i wasnt there only one. Kate, Sarah and i shared the same view :P Moving on, all the girls went with Kenny to learn some movements to go along wiht the song we were singing. But then 4 girls left to learn the alto part. When we were done, we went back to learn the rest of the some. Finally, the song was comepleted and put together with all the separate parts(soprano,alto,tenor,bass). It sounded so cool. Really nice. We did this character thing where we had to close our eyes and Stephanie guided us, telling us things to imagine. Then we drew and wrote all the things we individually saw in our minds onto this big majong paper. Oh yeah that guys name is Aaron and he was in the YKLS with Balqis and my brother.



Day 4#

The day of our performance! We just touched up on the song and dance. But for some reason, the more i sang, the worse i sounded. Maybe it was cause of the itchy feeling i had in my throat.. Anyways, the performance went well and all even though i was pretty nervous. After that, we were treated to a performance of 2 songs by Stephanie, one of which she composed herself. Then Aaron sang a song for us too, from the musical Les Miserable 'Stars'. His voice is SO amazing!

stupidity's the name

My, my, my its been a while. Really a while!! This is seriously starting to become a problem. You know why? because I go online like once in 2 weeks or something like that.

Ok, the reason this post is called "stupidity's the name" because thats what iv been for the past few weeks.

First, last friday, at cheer practice, i was trying to do a handstand. And mind you, iv never done a handstand before. You wanna know what happened. Go ahead, take a guess. Nope? Dont know? Ok i'll spill the beans. I was so smart, cause when i did the handstand, i lost balance and fell*hard* on my shoulder and head. Shoulder hit the ground first followed my my head and finally, the rest of my body. Everyone was like "are you ok, are you ok?". The rest of my body felt ok except for my shoulder and neck. Didnt hurt that much at first but slowly, the pain grew. I tried getting people to pull my hand in hopes that that would help. No such luck.

So i went home and told my dad. Then he tried pulling but when i said it still hurt. He said i probably injured the muscle. Badly. So on sunday, my parents took me to think chinese chiropractor. Now comes the gross yet funny part. The doc told me that i had slightly dislocated my shoulder. Its stupid cause i was like "wow serious?!" I didnt actually feel that much pain to think that i did that kinda damage. Anways, i was told to avoid any form of strain on my shoulder for at least a week. And i followed his orders, up until today that is.

During PJ today, my captain asked that we do a little practice, since we werent having practice later. I have to admit, i was reluctent to do so because my shoulder still hurt and i was afraid i would injure it more. But regardless, i followed my captains orders. I did a few jumps and stuff. Then i supported soorah in one elevation and my shoulder already started hurting! I mean really hurt. I knew i shouldnt have done it but yeah. So i went home and told my dad and he called me a silly girl for doing that even when my shoulder was still hurting.

Final stupid move was at church earlier. I asked kate to show me this one move, the sitting on the shoulders thing. For some reason, i couldnt get my leg over onto kates shoulder and was stuck dangling there, mid-air. I was trying my best to reach the floor to brace myself for the fall but just as i was half a foot or so from the floor, kate lost balance and fell because i was putting all my weight back to lower myself to the floor. So i fell and really hit my hand into the floor ,then my shoulder. When i got up, my shoulder was practically burning and my hand had a carpet burn on it and was bruised a little.

Regardless of all the bumps and bruised iv accumilated over this one week, im still ok. A bit banged up but ok. So thats a good thing. I really hope my arm gets better by next week. Its starting to get annoying everytime i wake up, my shoulder hurts. Even thought i try my best to stay still at night while i sleep.

Anyways, that all the stupid stuff iv been doing this past week. Til next time guys.
Toodles, Caio!!