a page of life

A few words and a song to sum up how I've been feeling lately about a matter that cuts close to the heart:

I'm not sure why but of late, my head's been filled with memories of the past; memories of him.

It's pretty frustrating because I'm happy for him for moving on.

But I do miss him, miss what we had. A lot.

Then I kick myself in the head for how subconsciously uncommitted I was to the relationship.

SO stupid to allow the past to greatly affect the future,

with such potential for happiness.

Basically, I have commitment and trust issues.

And what I need to do about it:

Pages of Life - Tyler Ward

Now this is over

Over between what you've wanted to be

Nothing can change now I'm ready to breathe

Time to Fly
Mark this one down in the pages of life
Say goodbye
Further and further away from the night