Workie work work

Ok so Im working again this holidays and today's my 3rd day. Somehow this time it seems a little different from the other times. Like yesterday was the first time I taught the kids anything. Ok so it was only cooking but it is harder so teach a bunch of 3-6 year old kids than it seems. Either way, it was a great experience and now I know what it feels like to be a teacher. Oh yeah did I mention, we moved to a very nice corner single story house. It's definately more spacious for the kids.

Anyways, I got my birthday present today from my teacher-and my boss. Thank you so so much Emanda!! I really love it. I got this really nice dress that we got from her sisters shop in Hartamas Shopping Centre. It's called Lovely Peoples Shop. If you guys can, go check it out. It's a really youth kinda shop with cute clothes, shoes and hair accesories. I got alot of pampering today, from shopping to food and playing with Emanda's o so cute baby girl. I love her to bits.

But, my happy bubble got burst just as we were leaving to head back home. Kate called me and said we can't go for seventeens summer splash party on the 9th of June cause it clashes with new life. Sammy also mentioned this to me when I invited her as my plus 1. Im totally bummer about it. Come to think of it, I think this is one of those tests God puts out for us to see whats more important to us. I mean, I know what I have to do and whats my priorities but Iv been wanting to go for this thing since April and its so saddening to me that I cant go now. Iv been running this throught my head since monday trying to find a way to learn the topic for the 9th and still go for the party. It does sound shallow, especially for me, but how often do I get a chance at going for a party like this for free. And this year is like the ideal year for me to do everything I want cause Iv gotta concentrate on my SPM next year.

Its times like this that makes me regret not taking full advantage of the years when I wasnt as busy as I am now. But no matter what, I cant turn back time.

Any suggestions on how I can get through this without missing either event?

Hmm maybe I should ask shealin whether I can learn the topic for the 9th this week too. I hope, I hope..

Holiday - Today

Goodbye school..Hel-lo holidays!!! Well, for 2 weeks at least :P

I loved today.. Really really loved it. Although it was kinda tiring.

It feels so good to ponteng school every once in a while. Especially when its the last day of school before holidays. As a result, I got to spend a whole day with my mommy!!! And I mean a whole day. Ok maybe spending a whole day with your mom is not that big a thing to some of you guys out there but to me, it's a real treat cause I dont really get to spend time with my mom that often.

And dont think I pontend-ed school just for fun. No thats not me. Well most of the time anyway. Nah, I didnt go to school today cause I had to go to the dentist to get my retainers. Man, just when you think you're finally done with all that metal in your mouth, you gotta put it right back in!!!

Ok, today. Mom dropped me of at the dentists' office before going to work cause of a meeting. When i was done-which was like less than half an hour-I went back to my moms office with her friend. By the time we got back, my momma was already it the meeting so I just waited in her office minding my own buisness, doing my homework( see, Im not lazy), reading my story book. Before I knew it, it was already 12.45 and time for lunch. By that time, mom was still not finish and I was getting hungry. Boy, was I getting hungry.

Blah blah blah... time went on.. more work.. more reading..

Finally, we got out of that place they call an office, more like slave factory to me( sorry mommy) and headed to maju junction where we did some shopping, some window shopping and more than a little talking. I particularly wanted to go see nichii cause Iv never been there but now I have :) So we went through the entire shop and found some really nice stuff, tried on a few and eventually bought some of 'em. I got this really darling brown dress. Simple yet classy. Really nice. Not something you find on any everyday basis, you know? Mom got a square collar white blouse.. and when she got home to show dad, he was like "wow.. so sexy.." -ok maybe he didnt use those exact word but wouldn't it be cute if he did ?!

Anyways, we finally got home after a grueling 2 hour jam-filled drive home. By the time I got home, my head was pounding so bad, it felt like it was gonna fall off my own two shoulder at any given moment. Oh yeah, did I mention that a baby lizard got into our car!!! I was so scared, I didnt even want to get back in the car!!! I absolutely hate lizards!! Moving along, we ate dinner not long after mom and I got home and that brings me to right now where Im pouring out my days events onto this thing we call a blog :)

Ok, Im spent. Im seriously one tired girl but also one very happy girl :) Im going to sleep the rest of whats left of today away.

Im out.

You..

Once you were here,
Now you're gone.

How do I feel?
I guess I don't know.
Or maybe,
I don't want to know.

In my heart,
You won't be forgotten.
But you,
You'll never be my number one.

I thought I knew you.
Guess I didn't.
But now,
I don't really care.
Not anymore.

Thank you for all you've done,
For me, with me.
I won't forget it,
It will stay with me.
Always.

Take care of yourself,
I know you will.
Just one thing,
Think before you act.

Once you were in my life,
But now you're out.
I don't want you in my life,
But I can't had you out of my life.

My heart aches for you,
Just for you.

You're not mine,
Not anymore.
You never will be.
You're lost,
To me.

Dissapointment.. and what it brings

Why is life so full of sadness and dissapointment? From so many aspects.. Family, friends, studies, hopes, dreams... You know, sometimes it feels better and easier to just give up and not hope for anything anymore, not dream for anything anymore, not want anything because it saves you the hurt and pain and dissapointment of not getting it.

After so many dissapointments from people, you tend to stop trusting people. Why bother? You just end up getting more dissapointed and more hurt.

But on the other hand. you know why we keep on trusting? It because we cant live alone here. No matter how many times we fall and are dissapointed with the outcome. We still want to let people into our lives. Its just a matter of how long it takes for us to let people into our lives and our hearts again. We aren't supposed to be alone, to hide what we're feeling inside us all bottled up. God doesn't want us to be alone. Why do you think God put Adam and Eve together? He isn't one to let us live life alone. So keep on having faith in your family and your friends. Sure they'll dissapoint you sometimes but hey, they're only human. But God, you can trust with all your heart because He'll never let you down. He always got your best interest at heart. Friends are there for you, to help you through it all, to love and care for you!

"If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you want to be happy, I be your smile. But if you need a friend, I'll just be me" - Sammy <3

Love you guys <3

We learn from our dissapointments so that we don't do them again.

the little miracles..

You know, over the past few days, Iv really been thinking about all the miracles God has give and done for me-both little and big. Anyone can see God's obvious miracles like trees and chirdbirth. But what about the little ones? The ones people tend to over look and think its just by chance or coincidence. I'll tell you something, nothing in this world is by chance or coincidence. It's the little miracles that really put me in aw of Him.

Just last saturday, my mom and I had a little miracle. Since that morning, we were looking for my brothers' house keys. After lunch, as my mom was reversing the car to send me to church, her pouch-that was on the center panel-slid forward onto this cup holder thing that has a clicking cover. So, because the pouch fell on the cover, it unclicked and when i picked the pouch up, guess what I found there. My brothers' house keys! You know, for one split second i thought it was just another coincedence but then i stopped and realised what just happened. God had given us a miracle.

Then just yesterday I had another miracle. I was waiting at the baskin robins for my mom to pick me from tuition. And my phone was just hating me!! Full battery and it still didnt wanna turn on! I tried a few times but it just wouldnt turn on! There was only one other student wait to be picked up but he was waiting further down the road from me. When he left, I decided to try my phone one more time and I asked God to give me just enough battery to call my mom and ask her where she was. When i tried it again, it did turn on. With an extra bar of battery!!! With that extra bar, I called my mom and she told me to walk to mcD's where she'd pick me up and just when i reacted mcD's my moms car just got there. God made it so that I didnt have to wait alone for my mom to arrive.

Its truly amazing how He works in our lives. He does so much for us so we'll be comfortable and happy everyday and He doesnt even ask us for anything in return. Dont we serve a great living God!! I believe we do. Anyone out there reading this agree with me? Let me know.

Love you guys!!

I not a KID anymore!!

Wow todays sermon by Ps Victor was really great!! and funny too! Actually, the whole nst day was totally the best.. First was the worship, i dont think we've ever done songs like that in nst before and it was really really fun!!

I really like that.. Ok, so todays sermon was mainly about the youth today and dating/relationships. Ps Victor invited 3 guys(lucus,philip and daniel) and 3 girls(debbie,pei ling and melissa) for a series of questions.I really agree with that the six of them said. Good work guys. I found the questions he asked were really relevent to all of us, regardless of our age. All the things he said about maturity, responsibility and commiting yourself. Some people need to get that in their heads.

I think if anyones gonna get into a relationship, they've gotta be able to handle it. Not run away at the fist sign of trouble. That just screams immaturity to me. I mean, why are so many of our youths in a rush to get into relationships your not ready for?? Ok fine, if you've been in one before and you find you cant handle it, why not just wait til you can instead of trying to get into another? Dont make the same mistakes again. And just because you're a few years older than you used to be doesnt mean you're able to handle a relationship. Like Ps Dan said, you could be 12 or 18 or 35 and still be immature. Oh yeah, guys, theres no point acting mature when you're really not cause girls can tell :)

Another thing Ps Victor spoke on was virginity and how precious it is. Once its gone, you can never get it back. And thats why TRUE LOVE WAITS. I really like what Ps Victor told us about the couple who married regardless of the factor that one of them had a STD. For better or for worse, even thought they couldnt have children, they were happy and stood by each other. Now thats true love. Accepting one another for everthing they are. Their talents, their capabilities and their faults.

Ok i found this part kinda lame but funny. Before your think of getting into a relationship. Answer 7 questions. I'll try to list all of them if i can remember.

1. Are your studies ok?

2. Are you responsible?

3. Have you discussed a curfew?

4. Have you spoken to your parents about it?

5. Do you know your limit?

Err ok i dont think i can remember the other two. So thats what i got out of todays sermon. I think it was really benefition to everyone who came for nst today. Maybe more benefition to some than others.

I think all of the above can be summorized into one line,

"you reap what you sow."

I whole heartedly believe that.

love you guys,

marcia <3

PS: Happy Birthday Pei Ling!!!

oh my...

I tell you, add math can KILL people!!!! its so weird ,you know. The second i opened the test paper, everything i studied literally flew out of my head. I was already dumb-founded by the first question-can you believe it, the FIRST question-the more pages i flipped, the more things i forgot. Well, guess theres nothing more i can do now. Im just glad i was able to do the majority of the paper. Guess Ill just have to wait and see how i did.

Now Iv gotta try and prepare for a paper of a subject I havent even begun to learn. But thank goodness the paper is supposed to be mostly common sense.

2 Days and 3 Papers left til Im home free. For now at least.

Im out.

Of Sweet 16s and Thank Yous

Look look!! Iv finally gotten a blog =P Im so lame hehe.. Anyways, today's my 16th birthday. Traditionally, sweet 16s are supposed to be super special(especially for girl-sorry guys). And so,today is special for me. Not just for me but for two other dear dear friends, Dayang and Michelle. So today is TRIPLE special!! Happy 16th Birthday to the both of you again.

Personally, i think sweet 16s is something that should be celebrated and remembered. I mean, we'll never pass this day again, neither will we ever turn 16 again so why not just celebrate the gift of life with friends and family and cherish it for all the days of your life. Man, I sound like such a hypocrite, I didnt want to celebrate my sweet 16 today but i do have good reason. Sorry kate!! I promise you'll get a chance to do something for me after my exams and after sammy comes back k =)

Ok,and for the thank yous. Mom Dad, without you, i wouldnt be here today. Thanks for everything you've done for me. To everyone who wished me, thank you so very much. Im really blessed to have everyone of you in my life. From lesson to lectures, from laughing to crying, from advice to naging, thank you. All of that has helped me become who i am. YOU'VE helped me become who i am.

Thats all from me for now. Gotta get back to studying for the dreaded mid-terms. Let me know what you guys think of my blog and what i can do to improve k. I dont really know what to do =P

Marcia <3>