Closed off from love

I didn't need the pain

Once or twice was enough

And it was all in vain

Time starts to pass

Before you know it you're frozen

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But something happened

For the very first time with you

My heart melts into the ground

Found something true

And everyone's looking round

Thinking I'm going crazy

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But I dont care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they dont know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That i keep on closing

You cut me open and i

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Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

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Trying hard not to hear

But they talk so loud

Their peircing sounds fill my ears

Try to fill me with doubt

Yet i know that the goal

Is to keep me from falling

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But nothing's greater

Than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness

I see your face

Yet everyone around me

Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

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But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they dont know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

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Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

.

And it's draining all of me

Oh they find it hard to believe

I'll be wearing these scars

For everyone to see

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I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

.

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

.

Read me like an open book

Good Friday!

" Blessed are you when people hate you, and when they exclude you, revile you, and defame you on account of the Son of Man. If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. If you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. If you lend to those from whom you hope to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, to recieve as much again. But love your enemies, do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return. Your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High; for he is kind to the ungrateful and the wicked."

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Luke 6:22, 32-35

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He was wounded for our transgressions

and He was bruised for our iniquities.

Upon Him was the chastisement that made us whole.

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How would you repay Him for all He's done?

Go Green House : Keep Your Friends Close, Your Enemies Closer!
Us Cuties Doing Our Thang
Soorah and I : Don't we look alike?
Elyza and I.. And Saiful's medal :P
Dopey and I : In all our goofyness

Get it! Dopey.. Goofy.. HAHAHA

The old becomes the new

Ah man.. Just when I thought this little stitch up was all done up and put away, it starts unravelling itself and becomes a slightly bigger hole.
Who knew I - ME, you know!!, could get in so much trouble over this.. Grrr!
Maybe its about time I brought in the seasoned reinforcements.
Tim!! I need your help!!
He's the only one I think is capable of giving me a solution to this sticky situation.

Who knew Id ask for this kinda help.

I don't really like you

- Skye Sweetnam

Good Luck All You '07 SMP-ers on your results TMR!

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Know you've got it down!

Gambate :D

Happy Belated Sexy Birthday Sarah Babe!!

Sorry its a couple days late..

When'd you wanna celebrate!?!?

XOXO Babe :)

Happy Birthday Hanrick :D

Does anyone know how to install a chatbox!??! I dont know what Im doing!! Gahhh

In between it all

1.Yellow House

2.Blue House

3.Red House
4.Purple House

5.Green House

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As dissapointing as it is to get last place after everyone's hardwork and time, again.. I guess its ok. I really am proud of everyone in it! They really gave their all. Saluts to Farzana for finishing your race, even though you were in alot of pain. You inspire me!! Thats what its all about. Never giving up.

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Although I didnt get the medal I really wanted to get, and I really wanted it.. I just feel really blessed to be given the chance to run with everyone else during sports day. Mind you, its the first time I'v ran on sports day itself. I tried my best. We gave what we had. Thats all anyone can ask for really.

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So now its over, my last sports day... *sob sob* Its time to put it behind me. Whatever the outcome, we did good. Everyone did.

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Cheers to all Green House members! Keep your chin up, nothing to be ashamed of :D

Proud of You!! <3

Deep in thought

You know, Iv been thinking about a bunch of stuff that my little voice, in my head, has been saying. Stuff that i cant bring myself to say out loud. Why? Because it'll make matters worse. Give people the opportunity to hurt me or make fun of me.

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I know I sound really insecure. But growing up in the situations Iv been in, insecurity is the smallest of my peoblems. Being the odd ball in primary, where everyone didn't wanna talk to you, thought you were weird, that kinda atmosphere can really mess up a kid. Namely me. I went through alot of emotional ups and downs during those years. From the normal, hyper-chatty kindy kid to the stupid primary to the bully to the uber shy one. I was so messed up, I didnt know who i was by the end of my primary school life.

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So I decided to toughen up in secondary school. Start anew. But now that I think about it, my new start was the opposite of everything I wanted to be. All I can remember really being is angry. Angry at everyone and everything. I'd go to school literally with a black poker face everyday. Then the same people would repeatedly ask if I was ok and it'd annoy the hell out of me! Some days I just felt like punching everything till my knuckles bleed. Such, I had good days but in that particular year, the bad out numbered the good. Not a good start at all.

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Form 2 and 3 were practically the same. Knowing what i did in form 1 wasnt what i wanted, I tried to change again. But the chance wasnt exactly for the better. I went back into my shy shell. Feeling detached from everyone, not belonging to any "group" at school. The only place I felt really comfortable in my own skin was in church. No doubt church is only once a week, but it was that along with its people that kept me together. Of course, I had my share of back sliding, but God never gave up on me. He always found a way to bring my focus back to Him. I think my biggest challenge was to go for the missions trip to raub alone, without any immediate family around. In those 3 days, I regained a little bit of myself. Speaking to me every second I was there, God really touched the depths of me.

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Those 2 year also thought me alot about myself. How no matter what face I put up then, I was scared. Scared i'd me hurt again. That pain i felt was worse than any physical injury i'd gotten to that point. Solution? Run away. I decided to cut off my heart from all guys. Told myself I wouldnt like anyone at all. So now, 2 years down the road, I forgot what it feels like to really like someone. Thats my consequence for not facing my fears. Its kept me safe, yes, but am I losing more? There are somedays I miss the feeling. I dont know.. It really pains me when I think about it now. Cause no matter how hard I try, I cant remember the feeling.

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On the other hand, Im finally happy with who I am. Proud of who God made me. Yes, I still feel self conscious but at least now Iv got some peace of mind. I guess the easiest words to use is that I feel accepted. Normal, like everyone else. But that doesn't mean I feel all hype 24-7.

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In truth, lately Iv been feeling the lowest Iv been in the past 2 years. But I think thats something you're not prepared to hear. In the hidden spaces of my heart and my mind are secrets that are meant for the Almighty and me alone. Some may see it as ordinary and petty but to me, those secrets are what hurt me the most. Its the details that make the bigger picture, the unseen things that are most dangerous.

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I'd rather be Anything but Ordinary.